Recently, I had come back to Dr. Lee-Bloem, not because I was sick, but because I wanted to purchase some vitamins from her. I have given birth to a baby boy. He is 4 months of age now. I want to continue caring for my body even better, now that I have that little angel to care for. For almost 3 to 4 years I have been doing so well that I had not been taking any vitamins or medicine at all. Whenever I felt stressed, I would just do my energy medicine techniques, and it helped.
I have now realized how strong one can be, and how successful in many ways, with a little determination. I still remember those moments when I sat and cried for hours and hours and felt so miserable as well as my family. I tried to commit suicide many times, because I thought that I would never get better and that my life was over. There was also so much anger, resentment, pain, and hurt inside that it would trigger a manic attack. I also saw my dead mother on a few occasions. I used to see her in a black, ripped dress reaching towards me. This would get me so scared that I screamed and tried to run away from her and tried to hide from her. I now get chicken skin when I think of these thoughts. But nowadays, it seems just like a bad dream.
For a long time, I was not interested in getting any help. Once my parents (father and step-mother) realized that when a sick person does not want to get help, there is no miracle or medicine in this world that would get that person better unless they want to get better, that is when they finally gave up on me, or that was what I thought.
I finally decided to go to my homeland Honduras for vacation. I stayed there for 2 months. After that, I came back here and decided to get help in order to get better and decided that I was going to do whatever the doctor told me to do. I did it for just a few months, because after 5 or 6 months, I was doing so well that Dr. Lee-Bloem kept reducing my vitamins until I was taking just a few. After I stopped my treatment with her, and a few months had gone by, I stopped taking vitamins, because I was taking very few, since Dr. Lee-Bloem had reduced them dramatically due to my fast recovery. I was working a full time job and going to school full time too, and I was managing well.
Once in a while I joke with my stepmother about how stubborn and determined I was not to get better. I also ask her if she remembers how she struggled everyday just to get me to drink my vitamins and/or go to Dr. Lee-Bloem until finally she gave up on me, or that was what I thought, but now I know that I was just not ready.
I went back to taking vitamins during my recent pregnancy, because I wanted to have a healthy baby, and I did. I have now been married for 2 years and have my first born, and life is looking great. I am still taking 3 or 4 supplements for health purposes. For my bipolar disorder, I have the best medication, and it can not be purchased, and it’s called “determination.” I think that every human being has this medication in them. They just have to find it within them and use it, because it does miracles in whoever uses it.
(Follow-up from the testimonial Bipolar But Not Budging, two years after stopping treatment.)